I'm so fragile

If everyday were like today..I'd die. i hate when i wake up feeling like this. It's the worst feeling ever. It's hopelessness, sadness, worthlessness, depression, and I feel like I just don't know what to do with myself. Like something is missing from me and I'll never get it back. like something was taken from me something important that makes me whole. that makes me myself. and it's gone. and it's changed me. what if he gets sick of this? i complain about everything. I'm sad all the damn time when there is nothing wrong. I want to make him happy. not bring him down with me. what if he regrets ever trying to be with me? what if i become a burden? i'll fight harder just to prevent that but i'm fragile. and I don't know how to be strong again. More then anything I want this to go away so I can be happy and make the ones around me happy and stop having to depend on them to make me happy. it isnt anyones job to make me whole and fulfilled. I just want to feel like myself again. everyday. I feel it somedays but days like this ruin it and when I have days like this I get the feeling this may never go away......